Mar 242010
 

Narcissistic Ex Character; or Lack of Character?

I  never will cease to be amazed by the characteristic Narcissist behavior that my X followed  verbatim.  The term “characteristic  Narcissist behavior” really should be changed to “character flawed, unrepairable, without conscience, pathological liar, masochist, keep away from, Narcissist”.

X feels and acts on a sense of entitlement that is unbelievable.  X  thinks that he is better, smarter,mightier,craftier, than everyone else, Therefore, everyone around X was lucky to be chosen by X ,to serve, bow to, and lie for X. X used people as a means to an end; either to make himself  look better or become wealthier. Status and Material Wealth; the only two goals that marked any sense of achievement in his life. Anyone that was not a source that could help X achieve these goals for X, were deemed unworthy to be in his presence. Anyone that was could no longer serve X for in his endeavors for status and materialistic wealth was dismissed, dropped like a hot potato, from the ” X World”. X also recruits a “lower class” of people to serve his needs, using fear,  intimidation, money and indebtedness. These people become his ever ready servants, available for a lot of  X’s dirty work. X makes sure that if something is ever going to go down, these people are going to take the fall. X never gets HIS hands dirty!

X is a highly skilled, and very, very, convincing and conniving LIAR. The lies that X tells others are often so ridiculous, and unbelievable that these LIES MUST be true!!!!!! X knows enough about the legal system so he can fool the Police, Courts of Law, Bank Officers, etc.,and enough about human emotions, to fool the rest of us. This, X  learned by studying people.  The only  true emotions that X possesses  are anger, rage, and jealousy. However, X can exude “Love” and cry, at the drop of a hat, and pretend to be a caring and sincere human in order to fool, and CONTROL  his  wife, family, and so called  “friends”. X has only superficial friends, and they, along with everyone else, are all, expendable things.  No one really knows X, and he keeps it that way. X paints different pictures of himself, depending on what his goal is, to everyone around him. He also tells lies, about the people around him, to other people so that he can CONTROL everything.

Well, X THINKS he’s in control. The end result of X’s need to lie and control is a continual state of CHAOS, that he, and those around him, lives in. X is only happy living in a state of CHAOS; because when the CHAOS stops, X is likely to get busted. People ask each other questions about his various and contradictory stories; ie. the” X Version of  Truth”. This is when X  invariably gets himself in trouble because he can’t keep his stories straight! So then X creates BIGGER LIES to try to dig himself out from under the BIG PILE of  POO that he has made. X will NEVER claim responsibility for the messes that he makes out of other peoples lives. NEVER!!!!  The messes, according to X, are ALWAYS the fault of  that someone else, who is  “A  LIEING  A-HOLE” !!!  Takes one to know one.

Eventually, X has to move to a new group of people that does not know about the BIG PILE of POO that he left behind, that of course is NOT HIS FAULT ANYWAY. X starts the cycle of  LIES, CHAOS, and a new POO PILE,  over, and over again.

Life with X is like living  through a very long, and painful, visit by the Tasmanian Devil……

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Feb 252010
 

The Courtroom as a Stage for the Narcissistic Ex

I’m in my 10th year of this process, and there are so many, many, aspects that I deal with everyday of my life. I can only write this in pieces; from the now, to the past, and back again, because that is the only way that I can deal with and remember what has become a seemingly, never-ending nightmare.

Yesterday, I had to go to court again, for a temporary restraining order (TRO) that my ex concocted, using his child, to have me removed from my own house, over 3 years ago. The person that I saw in the courtroom was an evil caricature of the person that I fell in love with over 11 years ago. For that reason, I will now refer to my ex husband, as “X”.  I’ve developed a way to see X as unhuman (my word, probably not in Webster’s) , and inhuman. That is what X is. Pure and simple, there is nothing normal or human about him. No human feelings, no human passion, no remorse, no regret, no soul………no nothing.

I will be back to talk about the courtroom experience. This can be exhausting at times. I have been dragged though the “Justice System” by X for so many years now that I’m finally becoming immune to all of it. X is extremely litigious and VERY PROUD of the seventy five+ lawsuits that he has either initiated, or been involved in, and has threatened me with X’s experience in legal manipulation to “take me down” if I ever left.  Pretty scary stuff for me. I’ve never even thought of calling 911 except in a life or death emergency. X uses 911 as a personal phone number to create very calculated false police records to use against me in court. I was never even contacted by the police after X filed some of his reports, and had no idea that these reports even existed. Every report against me was has been false and ridiculous. I have many witnesses, in each and every false report that X filed, that can, and will stand up for me. Does that matter? I don’t know anymore. Enough for now.

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